So like on Thrusday i plucked up the courage to ask the Japanese exchange student when he was leaving. So on the bus I tapped him on the shoulder and yeah asked and he said tomorrow. <LIKE ZOMG WATT WATT?>
And i decided to give him my email on this really cute note <it was written in japanese and everything xD>
so im sitting on the perfect seat to pass him the note AND HE DOESNT GET ON -SPAZ SPAZ-
Apparently he left early to the airport T_T

so no jap guy for aniva :[ Ah well.


Our maths test was cancelled which was sweet.

I was standing on the esol deck by myself waiting for my friend and the volley ball hit me... :[

Weekends= boring

Let me introduce myself. My name is Aniva and i am attending avondale college turd form.

This is how my life is.

-Im home staying-ish at my grandparents place because i cant stand my mum , my stepdad who i refuse to acknowledge and my 4year old half sister.
-My dad lives in various countries because of his business and im practically flying everywhere at Christmas.
-I have one person i call brother because we have grown up together since a young age and he's practically all i care about, but he is leaving to country very soon...
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- I have quite alot of friends but maybe only one trustworthy one.
-If you go to my school you may of heard quite alot of rumours about me. eg. Slut, Bitch, Whore, Skank. May i say that none of that is true, trust me. im the most insecure push over there is.
-There is alot of drama in my life atm.
-in most of my posts i will not mention (real) names.
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Okay, So here is my first journal.


Today we had the most shittiest weather Auckland has seen and i had school :[
I try so hard to concentrate but seriously. I cannot think straight when Tiffany comes to visit (very lame joke i got off whatthebuck xD).
So there's this guy that i had a thing for like about 2 years. and now i finally have him it seems like it's not worth it because of the way he left me hanging for those 2 years. He's nice caring and funny but clueless. Do i deserve better? I dont know. The first 2 weeks were amazing. like it felt like all ive been waiting for. It's nearly been two months and now im starting to doubt. My feelings for him change now and then so dont judge me xD


There's this Jap exchange student who catches my bus and he seems to also catch my eye ;D (LOL IM SORRY THAT WAS SO DRY.)
I find him looking at me sometimes and it makes me feel.... insecure... *shifty eyes* IM A TEENAGE GIRL. THIS IS NORMAL! XD


School is gay. really. Im not learning anything new. Im over the rumours and bitchiness. I really would like someone to say to my face what they say behind my back... It never happens...

Tomorrow is a half day and im gonna be going to town with a few friends from school to meet up with this brother of mine that is leaving soon. Gah the day is getting dark so early now that i cnt stay out that late. (RAPE.)

So yeah...

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